Sunday 30 August 2015

Finally A new start!!!

Yes for those who were with me from the begging you would of known what terrible tragedy happened to me, but I have endured it all and come out surprisingly a different person. I feel that I have learnt so much about the people who I felt were my closest friends, Its surprising in a span of a year of trouble and misfortune can actually distract you from the bigger picture, the goal meaning the main reason why you was there in the first place.

I once met someone whom I told my troubles with, being much older than me she listened and gave me advice which I will keep for the rest of my life, I wont be sharing it on here, because it was very personal and I feel that some things should be kept private and secret. But what she taught me was basically just do right.

so that is what I am going to be doing, I am just going to do right!

I had such a horrible and lonely experience in the past year, losing people and friends are almost a daily occurrence to me, but that is not what surprises me or saddens me anymore, its the thought, the very feeling you had for them when you first met them that said in your mind "yes, he/she seems very nice" but then fast forward the end of the year and you see it miserably fall and vanish like it was never there, and then you think of not what you have lost but of how distillational the mind is. I was a fool for giving you my time anyways, your not even worth it anymore.

If you had not noticed from the title, I am very excited to MOVE ON!
All I wanted this last few years was change, and now i finally have it.
A new life and new beginning,

I am not going to think about the good memories I had in the past year because I have truly had none, Not a single one, Every day I breathed was a half-life a life full of messieurs and torment. It depressing I know... But that's how I felt.
I am from today, (well yesterday, if you read my Google+ page) starting a fresh start. I am proud to say that I dislike my past life and all the people in it. I burn them like letters from a past lover. Yet the memories will always be within. I am happy to never go back, I will not go back, I have cut all ties with it and now I am NEW AND REBORN!

This must be sounding so strange to you right now, and yes it sort of it to myself as well. But I am happy to start a new, from now on only happy thoughts and feelings.
I will be the person I want to be, some people have hated me for it, I know I am horrible but know I am horrible and better than you! Because if I am a horrible person have done less worse things than yourself it makes the other person more horrible than me!

I have learnt many lesions this year and I will remember them all.

TIPS:
1-don't trust anyone
2-even the nicest person can be the devil
3-don't ever hide who you REALLY are.
4-don't let anyone judge you and if you do, tell them to fuck off because there opinion does not matter! *Be prepared to lose close friends with this, but its worth it at the end*
5-Live in the moment
6-Don't think negative 24/7

and my last tip will be just do right. Even if that means doing wrong or if it makes someone feel sad, sometimes the truth hurts and that's okay.


I will be posting alot more now, to share with you guys my new life;)
BYEEE!!!!!